Here I Come Again..

Hello once again...pheww..after a long time..here I come to update my blog again...not to say that I was busy..but..it was merely because, I was not in a good state of mind. Well, things won't always be as what we plan ryte. 2015 was not a good start for me. Putting aside my posting that I've been waiting, I would say that this year is quite a disaster for me. It all started when I was posted to the "awesome" district in Johor called Pagoh. I hated the place as a whole. Seriously,I couldn't accept the place at all as there were no single entertainment in there, be it a theatre, restaurants, good sceneries,food or even good people. After both growing and studying in big cities of Seremban and Kuala Lumpur for more than 23 years and being urged to go to a totally isolated area for work purpose was definitely a never ending nightmare for me. Trust me, I suffered a lot. However, as time passed I convinced myself to just accept my fate and I started to live in it as how it is. My life in 'Pagoh' taught me many things that I did not know and see before this. I learnt the true meaning of love in family, I understood the need of friends, I realised how people change according to their needs and more to that I learnt to be independent. There were no days that I didn't cry that very time. My only hope was God. My prayers to Him somehow helped me to move out from the hell I was in. Things changed slowly, and my days brightened as they passed...whatever it is, the one word that kept me going was the self-esteem that I had in me. I made a promise to myself that, I should not give up in any challenges that I would face in my life. I know that I am not as strong as I seem to be but I know that I love myself and I still have many dreams unfulfilled. Moreover, I too need to prove my real self capability to many people who had badmouthed and looked down upon me. So, in order for me to accomplish all my dreams, I need to stand strong as the 'bricks that hold the sea water from coming to the pathway'..hahaha..You think I can do that? hmmm..lets see what fate has it for me...

p/s-I'll never give up. HE will be by my side.

I never thought that u would....

Everything that is happening between me and u now is like a nightmare that I would not want to experience again in my life....do you know why? Because it hurts me to the core..yes it does...You know I would not be able to take it,yet u did it...i know I should accept it, just like other girls will do...but I just couldn't. Its not that I'm not trying..each time I open my eyes from my sleep,I will try to reach my phone to call you...but something inside me will stop me from doing so...my only question to you is...."How could you?" I trusted you alot...and you knew that.. you taught me everything,to smile,to laugh,to forgive,to accept and to live life happily..but why can't you teach me to forget your mistakes and be normal back to you...

Im just a normal girl who is yearning for care n loyalty...but why do i lose to get it everytime. I know you can't do anything for it now..i understand..i totally understand u...but do u understand me...the situation that you have put me into.....where do i go n get remedy for that....many questions are still unanswerable.....till when I'm going to be clueless,I don't know...but whats for sure..is just that...IM NOT GOING TO BE THE SAME TO YOU ANYMORE....you have lost me..  

its different...

Life has changed...nothing seems to be same as before....The only thing that is visible now is the new challenges that I am going through in my life. This new life phase of mine is teaching me the real meaning of life and the hurdles that one has to go through in order to reach the highest peak of  it. Believe me, its tough and I am seriously not enjoying my life even for little.Happiness aside....I am learning and realizing more about the love and affection that my family has on me. Now I am far away from my family and also my beloved boyfriend,yet their love and expectations on me are the ones that keep me moving forward each day. Just like everyone out there I too wished to be happy and to lead a sweet working journey but God decided something else for me...and I am accepting it with a big hand.....I believe that HE has HIS own reasons for it..so i will wait and strive along with the upcoming challenges...I need to face the challenges in order to make my parents proud and also to shut those filthy mouths that badmouthed and looked down upon me. I know I can do it....I am trying my best to be an independent girl who don't bug her parents for anything...I am trying...and I will succeed one day...HAPPINESS is not forever but if you want to make it last long then you have to strive for it...I may not be happy now but trust me I am going to update this blog with a happy entry really soon.....

What's cuukin?

Yesterday was all about getting myself busy with the cooking schedule. I know it sounds unbelievable but trust me, I cooked yesterday! Well, we were all vegetarians yesterday since it was a Tuesday and it was a plus point for me as I am phobic to touch raw-meat. So, I took the chance to give myself a try to cook vegetables. After discussing with Mum, she agreed to assist me in my cooking and she even warned me not to dirty her kitchen and do the work tidily. Listening to my Mum's orders, I shook my head with the sign of agreement and ran to the kitchen preparing to show my cooking talents. 

My menu for the day were; Tairu talipu (yogurt curry),pumpkin gravy, beans cooked with tauhu, cabbage cooked with turmeric powder, lady's finger fried dry and Pudina tovayal (pudina paste).

This was my second time cooking at home and it was a success! My parents and my sister liked the dishes very much and they said they were delicious. However, all the credits that I received go to my Mum for assisting me and also for staying patient with my mistakes and my never ending questions throughout the period. Thank you amma for teaching me to cook! 

First trial was a victory and now I'm looking forward to cook "Chicken Briyani". Hehehe..Its my bf's favourite dish. He likes to eat chicken very much, so in order to impress him, I need to serve him good delicious food. For that, I need to overcome my phobia to raw-meat. Haih...wish me luck for that people. Till then, thank you for reading. See you again in my next entry!

"My Other Half"

The picture above reminds me to many things that happened in my life. From my endless efforts to find the right guy for me till the very time that I broke down into pieces for choosing the wrong one and finally finding and hooking myself to the perfect one of all. Well, whatever it is I would definitely say that all the saddening journeys that I walked through in my life, had somehow lead me to the best. I agree that, I suffered a lot while going through hardship after breaking up, and being cheated with the name of love, but I would also never deny that, I had changed into a better person after those terrifying experiences. The quote that sounds, "People learn from mistakes" was absolutely true in my case. I learnt that, love can't be find, it should happen by itself. That means, we should not SEARCH for our other half! When the right time comes, that person would certainly come and stand in front of you! Believe me, that would be the most happiest moment that you will ever experience in your life! However, there will also be some who would come and go in your life, and that is when you should be extra careful in choosing the right one. The principle is simple, you have all the rights to mingle with whoever you like, but you should know your LIMITS. Be friends first, then move on slowly to the next stage. Remember, if he/she in your other half, then it WILL happen and last forever. So, don't lose hope.

So, who is my other half? As I mentioned earlier, I did found my man after six years. As any other couples out there,we too started as strangers who became friends in facebook (he added me first). I approved his request after 2 months I guess. Then, after chatting for 4 months plus, we exchange numbers and started our phone conversations. From my talk with him, I got to know his characteristics a little bit, and more to that, he too shared his pass love experience and so did I. That was how we became closer. Yet, since I was busy with my studies and my practicals that time and also due to my concept of "not trusting any guys", I started to step back when I realized that he liked me. I told myself not to fall into the trap of love anymore and I replied him with a harsh NO and sometimes it will be added on with some hurtful scoldings as well. Pheww...regardless to how I treated him, he still came after me and cared for me. I still remember his words of "Hema, its ok that you don't love me or don't like me, but I care for you. So message me when you have reached your destination, I need to know ok and I'm sorry for making you uncomfortable". Those words were doubtlessly sweet and during that time, his words annoyed me and I shouted at him back but he never failed to get what he wanted done. This was one of the many incidents that pushed me towards him out of the barbed cage that I put myself in.

True love never fails, and I witness that in my love life. Each time we fight, he will be the first one to give in. He also never fails to be there for me whenever I needed him. The last year of me in my college was indeed the best year of my college life although it was hectic than all the years before. Whenever I was down or I feel demotivated, he will the one to come and motivate me. His words were the petrol for my happiness and my success. I love him so much and I am proud enough to tell that, I FOUND MY OTHER-HALF! I am happy, and I am changing to be a better person for my other-half, and that is because he is the worth of it. Likely, to you who is reading this entry of mine, all my best wishes to you to find your other half. He/She is just going to be out there somewhere. Remember do not look for him/her, when the right time comes, that person would appear and "TADAAA" there you go exploring the beautiful moments in life together! 

p/s- To my man: I really love you so much! I cried while writing this entry thinking of all the sacrifices you have made for our love so far. You changed my perception of life and you made life more meaningful to me. Love u bby.

-outing during my birthday#strawbeerycheeseecake#pavilionstarbucks-

To start of with......

Owh yeah!I'm so done in creating my new blog...it is indeed tiring and exhausting to create this new blog after losing the password for my previous one...So,this is my first time writing in this new blog of mine.To start of with, let me disclose about myself to you. Well,im Hemalatha and I created this blog specially to write on the tales of my life.I'm sure the word "tales" gives you the shocking thought that my life stories are very much like those fairy tales that we used to read since young,hehehe..nahh! NO! NO! Don't rise your hope till there yet.The entries that I am going to share with you are all about the various paths that life has brought me till now,so there will be no stories of me captured by the a witch with a magical spell and a handsome prince coming to save me from the spell! (*hope it happens!hehe) Trust me you are going to witness all my happiness,sorrows,my never ending craps, and also about all the tiny-miny dreams that I wish to endure before I take the last breath of my life. I know that those writings would somehow entertain those of you who are reading it!! HAPPY READING PEOPLE!!

p/s Gosh, I guess I need to stop crapping for now.My favourite tv show is on AIR,and I surely don't want to miss it!!! Catch you all in the next entry of mine entitled "My other'half"! Bubbye for now! TC!ARIOS!